Consider it pure joy...

Oh that you would rend the heavens and come down! (Isaiah 64:1)

Don't you feel that way sometimes? "Lord, if only you would just rip open the heavens and come down to me. Sweep me away in the arms of your love. Kiss me with the wine sweeter than what is known to man. Speak words of sweet, satisfying honey into my soul and my heart and I will be satisfied. Set my mind in places only you dwell!" Ugh!

This is my heart right now... Lord... come!!!!My heart is so broken right now... broken.. I mean crushed. You know how when you drop a glass whatever and it shatters into a million pieces, some big some small? You look at the big ones and they seem to be hopeful of placing it back together, but then you get to the teeny tiny ones and you kjnow there's no way you can mend it. That's where my heart is. But you know what I love about it? That means it takes Jesus to fix. It takes Jesus to put those shards together. I can't do it. And He LOVES to hear me say those words. I can't do it Lord...I need you... but above that.. Iwant you to do it.. I want you to fix me, fix my heart.

Trials... they are a coming... they are here. But with Christ, you can persevere through the storm, the chaos, the trials, because you know He won't allow these things to pass without pruning you to produce such sweet sweet fruit that heals the land!

Oh that you would rend the heaves and come down! That you would kiss me the kisses of your lips that are sweeter than wine... I love that about God. That you can have so much pain and sorrow and in one instance He comes and it's like He just kisses it all away with the sweetness of His love, His touch. Oh and He desires you beloved! Isn't that precious? That Jesus desires you... UH! He desires me...in the midst of my brokenness and anguish, he desires me... to be with me... to know me... to love me... to KISS me... to HOLD me, to tell me the sweetest secrets and treasures of His heart... to reveal himself to me. Oh I love Him I love HIm I LOVE HIM!


I pray where you are tonight you would encounter this love.

Also if you're reading... I'm going to be starting a fast in life... battling not only weight, but the demons and flesh that lie behind my weight...my gluttony and selfishness among other thinngs... so tune in if you like. And if you know Jesus... please be praying! I'll chat with you soon!

AZ